A Child's Cry

Sometimes reading the news just kills me. My heart breaks and I dream of hunting those that hurt children and  even animals. But the cries of a child echo in my head when I read of the parental/caregiver abuse that seems to be so prevalent in this society that does not value the life of a child. We are returning to the Dark Ages when children were chattel and had no standing in society unless given by a male relative. They were not even required to report their deaths. Today, anger is a cancer that infects a heart that should be overwhelmed by the responsibility and desire to care for the helpless captive that is a child. A daily reading in any newspaper will prove that is no longer the case for a vast majority of people.



A Child’s Cry

If I cry, will that satisfy you?
The part of you that meanness took hold
And if I show that my soul is sliced
Will you leave and not hurt me anymore?

What is in you that yearns to hurt?
To leave a mark, a bruise?
Who are you to believe, that is your right
Your right to oppress a soul?

I am weak, smaller than you
I cannot fight or stop the pain
I suffer, and wince silently
Knowing a noise will increase
My doom

How can I prove that you don’t
You never, have to hurt me again?
How can I stop your hand
From hitting, from burning?
Your voice from cutting?

If I die, will that satisfy you?
Will you leave
And not hurt me anymore?

If I cry, will that satisfy you?
The part of you that meanness took hold
And if I show that my soul is sliced
Will you leave and not hurt me anymore?

Beer, Bohemianism, and True Christian Liberty

Beer, Bohemianism, and True Christian Liberty

Writer's Block

So I know what it means to have Writer's Block. I never thought that was really a condition until recently. I can say a hundred things in my head but when I sit down to write them, the great sentences or conversations are gone. Completely forgotton. This. Drives. Me. Crazy! Because truthfully I have so much to say. Especially on issues I am passionate about like Courtship, Single women in the church, how the church handles single women in the church, the poor, the rich, why I think I am fat. All kinds of things. What is holiness and how do you live it and be a Mother at the same time. Those important topics are crying out in my soul to be said. And yet here I sit. Not having a clue how to start my sentences, my paragraph or just a simple thought that can be made into an understandable sentence. So, for the slim audience that I have, please be patience, I am not a guru by any means but there are a few things I have to say and I guess when my life settles a little, (son is home, college again, girls want to see what school is like so sending them for a few classes at a local private school, chickens died, neighbors are a pain and it is hotter than bowl of fire) I will write. It will be seriously important and heartrending stuff along with enough humor to keep you interested. ":)) Coming Soon... the rest of the Courtship series.

Christians,The New Socialists?

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As I read about Dawinism and the survival of the fittest I am shocked that I see Republican mind sets in this socialist viewpoint. Only the ones who can work deserve to eat and survive. Get rid of all the excess baggage of hangers on that require the people who can work to help them survive. Am I imagining this? I don't think so. It seems that the Republican Social Reform movement is really Darwinism and Euthenics.


I have seen with my own eyes, those in office put my God's name on their lips in speeches and as soon as the camera's are off they speak in profanities and of partying til dawn in drunken excess, yet call themselves the Christian Conservatives. These are the ones who are calling for the ripping of the checks to the elderly, stripping them of their medical care and their ability to have medicine to help comfort the pains of old age. I am sickened to hear my fellow homeschool  fam
ilies who are well off, healthy and strong with no fear of the future because they are married to men who have a good and secure retirements or large life insurance policies, callously call the poor lazy and unworthy.  They do not know the struggle of the woman left with children to feed by a man who decided being a breadwinner was too much of a strain on his pocketbook and she who trusted him is left to feed those innocent mouths. The church says look to your family and the family says we can't afford it so she goes to the government and find relief. The old person who was raised in a time where a career for a woman was getting married and having children but because of the economic times and the love of everything young and strong their husbands either died unexpectedly or were laid off after 27 years with no pension. She is in her 50's and 60's with no prospects of a living wage as she has no skills. These are the faces of the poor I see. Not the drug addled woman who has 5 kids and lives with 2 men. Yes that woman is out there but if she is getting assistance then the rules for receiving assistance should be changed and monitored. Children should be taken swiftly and put in safe places (see my ideas on reviving orphanages with visions like Bethesda Home for Boys). It is the fraud and government waste that needs to be corrected, not the helping the poor. It can be done and should be done by the strong voice of Christians and others who care for the poor. It is appalling that the party that claims God is the one who is vilifying the poor. I am disgusted. But then I am middle class and not rich. Maybe if I were well off the greed would cloud my thinking and I would want to keep what "was mine"!  

Pie for 4th of July!

I made this yummy looking pie this morning after reading about it in Joanne Fluke's murder mystery http://www.murdershebaked.com/. I love a murder mystery with recipes. The first one I ever saw was the Aunt Dimity series http://www.aunt-dimity.com/

I will let you know how it turned out! :)

Apple Blackberry Pie

I am going to post Part 5 of the Courtship series in the next few days. I have it half written but it was wearing me out so I baked. It was delicious. Past tense noted I hope. Here it is for posterity....


Apple Blackberry Pie


8-10 Apples. Peeled, cored and sliced (I guess you could use specific kinds but being ignorant of things like that I use what is in the basket.)
1/2 Cup white sugar (or raw organic)
1/2 Cup brown sugar
2 or 3 teaspoons of vanilla
1/4 tsp cinnamon ( I am not a big cinnamon fan outside of cinnamon rolls)
1/4 tsp fresh grated nutmeg
1/2 tsp salt (or less if you want)
1/4 of a fresh lemon juice
1/4 cup of heavy cream
2 deep dish pie crust
1/2 cup of fresh or frozen blackberries


I put the apple slices, blackberries sugars, vanilla, cinnamon, nutmeg, salt and lemon in a bowl and stir together
Then dump it into a pie crust, pour the cream on top, if it looks like too much don't use it all, and cover with other half of pie crust. I cut out little hearts to tell my kids I love them and place the cut out in different places. Then I make x's all over it too. Cute huh? Not Paula Deen here.


Bake in a 350 degree oven for about an hour or until it is bubbling and coming out the holes. Serve with vanilla ice cream, or a slice of cheddar melted on top. Yum

On the Topic of Marriage...Here is something from John Piper

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This really spoke to me as it unearthed in my own heart thoughts that have been there and that I protect by rationalizing. Not a good thing martha.